After a lot of growing up a lot of mistakes a lot of selfish choices a lot of people I hurt and let down that cared about me I forgot how simply hearing the words “I’m proud of you” felt coming from friends …my family ….my parents …my grandfather just before he passed
…the biggest wins don’t always pay in cash
I don’t think I’d trade the feeling of knowing my father finally has something to say to his friends when they ask how I’m doing and I can finally walk into a family gathering and say more then “well nothing right now” when asked what I’ve been doing for work
now I own m own lawn service and things are hard considering i started with a push mower out of my girlfriends trunk of her car
but now I got a truck a couple zero turns professional equipment and a few friends who help
the season has slowed down and I invested everything it to making this work and now little things here and there have started to add up so a gift card would be amazing
I missed my chance for the 10000 grant
I was all excited I made it to phase 2 but work and my grandpa slowly passing I missed the deadline but that’s ok but man my grandpa would kick my butt if he knew I had missed a chance like that because I didn’t have eye on the prize
I really don’t know why I’m saying all this on here I guess him just passing and getting my first review that wasn’t five stars over a yard I felt I spent so much time on for a customer has kinda got me down and finding it hard to get motivated again .i guess i just needed some help or success stories from others who may have crawled outta this kind of funk or something to get me pumped about building something from nothing . Legitimately stuff i pieced together off the curbs.
Mowing yards is the only time I don’t feel the guilt of not being a better son friend dad uncle brother….sounds so silly but being successful is the only way I feel I can make up to every one for all the things I didn’t do all the things I missed all the bad….
I feel like giving up lately bu
Oh noooo I didn’t mean to post this🫣
Rlbraland​ did you want me to delete your original post here so you can repost? Let me know! (by the way, thank you for your honest and vulnerability here - that takes great strengths and I'm sure many on this thread will relate to you!!
